Post by jacky on Aug 3, 2009 7:45:58 GMT -5
Hi everyone.
I have a lot to think about lately. It's just... I don't know if I can make it through this one. This might be a "Be back later, talk to you then!" note. It might be a "leaving the site" note. I don't pretend to know what I'll do within the next few days or weeks. I know that whatever happens from here on out, just know that it was one hell of a trip. But it's getting hard for me to think, let alone write posts. I can't even see the computer screen very well. I'm sorry it's for something you all may think is stupid, but this isn't like one of those things where you eat two containers of ice cream with some friends and talk about other fish in the sea, and why men suck.
Because mine doesn't. He's at his wit's end, and he has to leave his house. I promised him I'd never tell anyone what it's like, but bottom line, he's living in a hellhole, and he has a chance to get away now. I know exactly what that's like. And that's why I can't stop him. I know it's going to be hard for you all to understand, seeing as I've never told anybody much about myself, but he's basically the only person who made/can make me feel like I was worth something, even though I know I'm just a thirteen year old boy who's getting emotional on a role play site rather than to my therapist, or my actual boyfriend.
Maybe boyfriend isn't the right thing to say. There is a huge chance that I'll never see him again. I know that. I've known that from the very beginning. Maybe we both knew this would happen. But as I said, I don't know what I'll do after this is over, and he's gone. I don't expect any of you to understand. I don't expect you to miss me. I just need some time.
If I'm not back by the end of the month, you can delete my accounts. I'll reply to this thread when/if I come back.
Goodbye everyone,
Jacky. (AKA Beyond Birthday & Hunny)
I have a lot to think about lately. It's just... I don't know if I can make it through this one. This might be a "Be back later, talk to you then!" note. It might be a "leaving the site" note. I don't pretend to know what I'll do within the next few days or weeks. I know that whatever happens from here on out, just know that it was one hell of a trip. But it's getting hard for me to think, let alone write posts. I can't even see the computer screen very well. I'm sorry it's for something you all may think is stupid, but this isn't like one of those things where you eat two containers of ice cream with some friends and talk about other fish in the sea, and why men suck.
Because mine doesn't. He's at his wit's end, and he has to leave his house. I promised him I'd never tell anyone what it's like, but bottom line, he's living in a hellhole, and he has a chance to get away now. I know exactly what that's like. And that's why I can't stop him. I know it's going to be hard for you all to understand, seeing as I've never told anybody much about myself, but he's basically the only person who made/can make me feel like I was worth something, even though I know I'm just a thirteen year old boy who's getting emotional on a role play site rather than to my therapist, or my actual boyfriend.
Maybe boyfriend isn't the right thing to say. There is a huge chance that I'll never see him again. I know that. I've known that from the very beginning. Maybe we both knew this would happen. But as I said, I don't know what I'll do after this is over, and he's gone. I don't expect any of you to understand. I don't expect you to miss me. I just need some time.
If I'm not back by the end of the month, you can delete my accounts. I'll reply to this thread when/if I come back.
Goodbye everyone,
Jacky. (AKA Beyond Birthday & Hunny)